Halloween was just a bit .. weird .. for me this year. It's a night that is usually filled with noise, lots of noise ... always a bit stressful trying to get a meal going, helping to get costumes on and at the same time trying to answer the door to trick or treaters. Then it's balancing taking them around the block and handing out candy.
This year was different. Hayley went to Elitches with a group of friends. Jackson and Eli got their costumes on by themselves and shuffled out the door with just enough time for me to snap a couple of pictures of them. They were off. By themselves. For the first year. They didn't need me.
The door shut and I found myself alone in the kitchen looking around not quite knowing what to do. It was quiet. It was eerie. It was different.
My kids are all growing up and becoming quite independent. I have to say that after the shock wore off I kind of liked it. It was just left to me and Sophie to hand out candy. I was able to take time to enjoy all the ghosts and ghouls and goblins that came to my door.
Them becoming independent allows me to have more freedom. It's a different stage in my life. My babies are not babies anymore. And that's okay.
Happy Independent Halloween!
2 comments:
Here's to more years of independant holidays!!
wow. you put how I feel in a nut shell. The independence is so nice, but then there's that feeling like your missing something - shouldn't you be holding someone? or doing something? checking to make sure everyone is okay.. I've been just a mom for so long - I'm having a hard time just being Marci.
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