Saturday, February 12, 2011

On unconditional love ...



I've been missing someone this week. A lot. You'll know who you are.

There's a smooth pink stone heart that stays on my bedside table as a reminder.

There's a bond you make with few people in your life. A strong bond ....so tightly woven that it can't ever be broken.

Distance can not break this. Time can not break this.

I miss your hugs ... and your simple kisses. Sometimes when I close my eyes ... I imagine you kissing my forehead. Did you know that when you close your eyes .. other sense become magnified? I can smell you. It's distinctive. It's you.

I miss talking to you. Laughing with you. For hours. About nothing. About everything. About life ... and death .. and birth ...love .. people ... relationships ...things that matter .. and things that don't.

I miss sharing my secrets with you. You never judged me. I could share anything with you and know it was safe. Always safe with you.

You've always have the best advice for me. You're always, always on my side. Even when we both knew I was wrong ... you always made me feel right. I love that about you..

Do you remember when our bond formed? I do believe it was the first time you touched my pregnant stomach. I think Hayley reached out and touched your hand from the inside of me. That was it. Forever connected. After she was born .. the bond between us was even stronger.

The impact you have had on my life has been significant. The life lessons you taught me. The unconditional love you showed me.

I am so extremely fortunate to have had the time I did with you. When it was just us. Doesn't the time itself seem short ... but the experience and connection will last a lifetime. In fact .. I still feel the effects of that every day. There are whispers of reminders all around me.

Saying goodbye to you was like having my heart ripped right out of my chest. Honestly .. I can't remember ever feeling a pain like that before. It was an end to a chapter we knew wasn't going to be repeated.

The memories are vivid. The feelings are real. The bond is forever. My heart aches to be near you again. Someday we will ... but even if it's not soon ... I know you are there. With me...

Can you feel my heart loving yours?


1 comment:

L2L said...

ohh to be loved so deeply, what an amazing bond!!!!