Sunday, April 22, 2012

Dedicated. Not obsessed. Yeah. That.




I work out almost every day of the week.  Because I have goals.  That I want to achieve.  I work hard at it. Lately I don't like the term obsessed .. but more like dedicated.  Makes me feel better about the hours of my life I have wasted at the gym.  Is it a waste if you love it?  Lately I've struggled with the want/need/obsession/comfort exercise brings me.  If I'm having a hard day.. if I'm struggling .. if I'm angry .. if I'm depressed ...  the first place I look for peace is the gym. I've gone to the gym at 10 or 11pm before... mostly because it's a guaranteed fix.  I've never walked out of the gym feeling worse than when I walked in.  

How can that be bad?  All things in moderation I suppose.  I do have problems with moderation in my life.  Go hard or go home.  And if you get home .. go hard some more.  

So this is the love/hate relationship I have with exercise ...

Here's the hate ... 



And here's the love ...


I see it as a win.  For as much time as I dedicate to it ... it's about time that work shows off.  

Now the key is maintaining ... cause it's freaking hard.  

Like.  Freaking.  Hard.  

and p.s. I'm thinking about becoming a personal trainer.  love it .. work at it .. may as well make money ... just thinking .. in black and white .. 

That was me thinking.  Out loud.  I know.  Now my head hurts.  Personal trainers don't have to be smart .. right??


2 comments:

Emile said...

When it makes you feel good and it makes you healthier, as long as it isnt hurting you or the other aspects of your life, its not a bad thing. And if being a personal trainer would increase your happiness I say go for it! Also, those are awesome abs!

Erika S. said...

you would be a great personal trainer! Do it!! Stop feeling bad about stuff and over thinking it. Just do with no regrets!